I am for sure addicted to this game. Addiction comes in many forms, and I am not ashamed to say it. If you are having trouble uninstalling or quitting League, please message me and together we can move on from this toxic community. I want out but I can’t seem to stop, and I know I am not alone. I am going to vent now, about some past experiences that have made me question my own sanity at times, and have caused serious stress and some sad times. Never in my life have I played a game that made me cry so much, and not because of the plotlines or stuff happening in the game, but because of the people who play alongside me. PermaBanned I actually lost my first account in 2017. It got permanently banned because I was getting harassed in a game and decided to speak up. You know those games where you make a mistake and get called every name in the book? MIA ping spams are going off every few seconds, it’s been 15 minutes since the mistake but your team is still hammering you for it? Yeah it was that kind of game, and my score was not that bad compared to the rest of them. So after trying to stand up for myself I got reported by everyone, and not even 5 minutes after the game was over I was locked out. I tried petitioning it, but the staff at riot games did not care, saying it was my job to keep my mouth shut and to simply let them run theirs, and I should have muted if it was bothering me. I believe in treating other people how you want to be treated, and so I am confused why it’s my fault for trying to stand up for myself when they are the ones opening their salt filled mouths in the first place? Am I not allowed to say “hey can you stop insulting me”? how come that’s reportable but calling me a B**** isn’t? Anyway what upset me the most in this incident was how those people who were giving me S*** left and right STILL play the game, and did not get in trouble even though I reported them. Those bullies are still going around harassing players for little things, and it is not okay. To be fair, in 2017 I was incredibly unstable and had trouble controlling my emotions, and when defending myself I also was saying things, but I can for sure guarantee they were not as harmful as what the team was doing to me, and it was all due to being provoked all game. Lesson learned though, I mute all now for my own protection. Unnecessary Chat Restrictions To this day I still have trouble with getting restrictions for doing nothing wrong. I am currently working on a 25 game chat restriction: 3 of my team mates were harassing me about their poor decisions, and I had had enough of their trash talk and decided to reasonable explain how I was on the other side of the map, and to not pick fights in the jungle because there is no room, and that those mistakes are not my fault, but the team mates. They then started going off about how useless and bad I was, and after the game was over I looked at the scores. Here is the breakdown: Flaming Mid Laner: 4/7/18 The Flaming Then AFK Jungler: 9//10/17 The Flaming ADC: 13/12/11 Me The Support: 4/4/23 The Chill Top Laner: 15/14/11 So between all 3 flamers, I had less kills, but that’s okay since I am the support. My biggest things are not dying a lot, and getting those assists! The biggest thing here though is the number of deaths. 7, 10 and 12? They were clearly more focused on the flame than playing safely, and chose to focus on criticism instead of playing the game itself. My 23 assists shows I did something, whether it was auto attacking someone or shielding a player, I participated. My 4 deaths show I was not focusing on the flame and I was trying my hardest to play safe. They first started flaming out Top laner, who did kind of feed early on in the game. It made it a bit difficult to play, but she did have a difficult matchup, and whenever she spoke was trying to strategize her next plays and was honestly really friendly. She did not ping spam and she did not speak unless she was talking about the game. She proceeded to carry that game for us, despite feeding early on, and I honored her for it. The Mid, Jungler, and ADC were really mad, and could not let it go. I stepped in to defend and then they started hating on me and my playstyle and score. Despite the bullies feeding and flaming me, I ended up having the best score in the game, and then BAM comes the restriction. 10 games where I have limited chat opportunities, but ever since I felt I was getting wrongfully punished I started muting everyone at the beginning of games. Chat restriction? How can I be restricted when I can’t even see what’s going on? Before the 25 game restriction I had a 10 game restriction where the only thing I had said the entire game was “please report this guy for verbal abuse”. I had a player who left the game before it was finished, and the other player was hurling insults at me and yelling in caps. That simple request landed me with a 10 game chat restriction. I never got notified that the leaver and the flamer were punished either. They probably didn’t. During this time I reached out to Riot Games support to ask them why they punished me when there were clearly more abusive players out there. They said it was because I asked the enemies to report my team mates, that asking for reports distracts from the game itself.. But them yelling at me and leaving the game, no that doesn’t affect the game at all right? WRONG Anyway, when I was discussing all of this with the employee assigned to my ticket, I said to them, “me asking the other players in the game to report a toxic player is not the same as someone saying “F*** YOU YOU STUPID C*** I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL!” or “F****** DUMBA** DO WHAT I SAY!” all because you missed a skill shot or misplaced yourself and got caught out. (I typed that out in caps like that because without the sensor, that is exactly what it sounds and looks like on the screen in the game.) Mistakes in the game happen, no one is perfect not even the professionals, and so when people go off on me like that, I feel like I need to tell them to stop. I’m not being toxic by asking them to stop yelling at me, but I can totally get in trouble for saying so. The employee did say they would go back into the game and look at the other players behavior, I can’t image they actually followed through with it. Me on the other hand, I would LOVE that job! Heck I would call myself an undercover player, and I would witness the toxic behavior first hand, and after the game could take instant action against them. That’s my dream, but they’d never do that and they’d never hire me either! I’m not even close to Gold and I heard you have to be at least Gold to work there. Doesn’t the world know that talent and dedication don’t just come from status? There are plenty of us silver and bronze players who have wonderful ideas for how the company could do better, but they don’t care. It’s safe to say, that every single game of league I play now, I type /mute all at the start. That way if there is ever a gang report like that again, I will always be in the clear because I will have not said a word ever. It sucks that’s how I have to play the game, but one day I hope to say goodbye to league, because it really is one of the most toxic games out there, and the company cares more about how much money they can get from the players than the community itself. The chances of playing a game where the players are all chill are so low. I will get those games every few days, and that’s not often enough. Riot does not care about the players or this would not be happening to me, someone who now mutes all every single game to avoid risking flame. On my first account, I had spent at least 2k on skins and content that I can never access again due to Riots Terms and Conditions, and now this second account is border lining the same thing for what? Being a human? Standing up for myself? Ridiculous! It’s just not the same, and so to save myself from losing another account unreasonably, I /mute all every single game now. I don’t care if people are friendly early on, people change when they realize the game is going to be a loss. People abuse the ping system forcing me to mute. When I /mute all, I choose to have a quiet no talking no pinging game over the potential flame that might occur, and because I’ve lost contact with my team the chances of wining are much slimmer. Team games require team communication in some form, but when I mute I have no access to that. All in all, I do not think I deserved this, but there isn’t much I can do but stop playing the game, and I am certainly trying to just that. Thanks for reading! I’m sure some of you think I’m full of it, and others can totally relate. I am not a bad person or a mean player, and do not think I should be treated like one. If you do choose to play league, remember to be nice to your team mates, and /mute all if you need to! That’s why it’s there! Lux is my favorite champion in the game. A few years ago they gave her a voiceover update, which crushed me along with the thousand other Lux mains in LoL universe. They were all about staying positive, and when they updated her voice lines they made her into this peppy meta sounding girl and nothing like how she used to be. Of course they kept some of her old lines and had the voice actor redo them in a new tone, but I don’t like them! Anyway here is the only video I could find with her old lines, and it’s in a song! I have watched it many times since it’s release, and find it very comforting for when I am missing her old personality. Enjoy, and remember, Stay Positive! And as you wish that others would do to you, do so to them. Comments are closed.
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AuthorI have been playing League of Legends since 2014, and I have trouble having fun with this game not going to lie. I want to quit I want to get gold, I am very conflicted, but I want to have fun with it. The least I can do for myself if not uninstalling, is vent about my struggles. Archives
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